Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The Journey


While walking this road of life, the journey is sometimes GREAT! We are traveling along the path and we can see far ahead. The way looks clear and bright. There is beauty all around us on every side. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, the flowers are blooming, children are laughing, and a song is burning deep within our soul. But wait! In the distance we can see dark clouds begin to roll in and cover up the sun. A heavy fog starts to lay across the horizon just enough to cloud up our view. The birds are no longer singing. We can not hear the children laughing and it seems as though the song in our heart has faded. Before you know it we have come to a bend in the road and we can not see what lays ahead. Things look dark and dreary and we fear to take another step.

We have been hit with trials and tribulations and it is as though our whole world has been turned upside down. Dear God in Heaven, do I really have to take the turn in this road? I am not sure what lies around the corner. I can not see what is up ahead. Things are not as they should be and I do not like this trial that I am in. What if it turns out the way I don't want it too? My mind is cluttered! Too much is going on inside. I can't think clearly. I am afraid to take another step. What if I make the wrong decision? I am a total mess.

Pastor calls a 15 day fast for those who would like to join him. I feel God calling me to join this fast. Yes, I will do it. I NEED ANSWERS! Can I make it through a 15 day fast? We were all anointed for and prayed for. During the fast, two songs are laid on my heart that I listen to over and over. The first one is "Daystar" and the chorus really got to me.

LEAD ME LORD I’LL FOLLOW
ANYWHERE YOU OPEN UP THE DOOR
LET YOUR WORD SPEAK TO ME
SHOW ME WHAT I’VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE
LORD I WANT TO BE A WITNESS
YOU CAN TAKE WHAT’S WRONG AND MAKE IT RIGHT
DAYSTAR SHINE DOWN ON ME
LET YOUR LOVE SHINE THROUGH ME IN THE NIGHT

Through this I got my mind off of my problems and back onto doing a work for the Lord. In doing this, He is better able in taking care of my problems because I am no longer holding onto them. I have let them go.

The other song that touched my heart during this fast is "Different" by Mollye Reese with Jamie Slocum. That is what I want to be. Different just like Jesus is.

I wanna be different Jesus just like you
I wanna be tender with mercy guiding all I do
So when others talk about me
Let it be because I am different
Let the difference be love

I made it through the 15 day fast. It really was not hard at all, Thanks be to God. I feel as though I have received some direction in my life for this trial I have been going through. Do I have all the answers? NO! But I will take it one day at a time and I am no longer afraid to take the turn at the bend of the road for I know that He will be by my side and that Mercy and Grace will follow me.

This one thing I must always remember, "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

No matter what the outcome is, I will rest assured that I am in the will of God. I will no longer fear what lay ahead for I know that He has all things under control and that He cares for me and has my best interest at heart. I will say, Not my will, but thy will be done, Oh Lord!